This post is for my "Lucki Dog". You see, for thoses of you who don't know, I had to put him to sleep yesterday.God, that was one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through in my life!!!

Dr.Gruber confirmed what the vet in Walkerton suspected, that he had Cancer. His right shoulder was just huge. He was in pain, we gave him Aleve's all week and that helped a bit but he still just laid there and slept about 90% of the time. You had to nudge him to get up and go outside, and then you had to keep coaxing him just to get to the back door from our room. When let outside all he did was stand there and bark. He looked like he was going blind and maybe letting him outside scared him, like he felt alone or something. Eventually he would hobble around and find a place to 'do his business'. He also couldn't stand without his legs wobbling and alot of times he would fall. He kept losing weight, which we thought we could fix by giving him 4 cups of dry food and 1-2 cans of wet food along with treats and leftovers, but I guess to no avail! I don't mean to sound selfish, but I want him back!!! The vet had the wrong age for him, as they had he was 14 and Eric and I didn't get him till Easter of '95.

Mindy and Mom came with us and I do believe they took it just as hard as Eric and I did. Thank you guys so much for coming, I'm not sure I could've made it without them,especially Mindy. I LOVE YOU MINNY!!

I also broke down and called my Mom. I know what everyone is going to say, but my mom loved that dog. She knew him from oct.of '95 all the way up till last sept.

He was her favorite, and I just felt the VERY strong need for my Mom, even after all she's ever put me thru. Hell, yesterday morning I went to Wal-mart for some new plastic bowls and seen Crystal. I know she seen me and God I just wanted to hug her and tell her 'bout Lucki. Something juts stopped me from doing it, so instead I left a note on her car telling her that we were putting him to sleep. I'm still not going to be "buddy/buddy" with my mom, but as my Dad keeps telling me, "She is your mother".

Things aren't the same around here without Lucki! Eric buried him next to Hailie on the side of the house and wrapped him up in his favorite blanket which was Eric's old Notre Dame blanket. I try to not feel so sad, but he was my first Easter present from Eric and has been throu some very tough times with us, hell we almost lost him 5-6 years ago when he had Hookworms and Whipworms. We didn't know it, and the worms where so bad, they were shutting his kidneys down. We dropped close to a grand that year to save him, and I would've given all the money I have now, and all the things I own, just to have saved him yesterday!! There will NEVER be another Lucki dog, he was more than just a dog to me/us he ws one of the family, like a child. But as Mindy told me, He's up in Rainbow Bridge running around with Hailie, She-Ra, & Daisy, gettin' all the "fee-fee" he wants, and running on all four legs!! So this post is for him, may he come see me every now and then in my dreams and I can't wait to get to heaven to see him again!! Lucki I Love You and Miss You Very Much!! You'll Allways Be in My Heart and Thoughts..love Mommy!!

Love,

~~~B~~~